Listen to your heart

My heart kept telling me everything would be okay as I struggled to stay strong throughout many years of personal adversity.

My extended family remained silent but I felt their judgment and heard their cruel whispers about my troubled relationship with my son.

I withstood this implied criticism for ten years until they lost interest and pretended we no longer existed.

Over the years I had sporadic contact with my son but it was usually strained and traumatic for both of us.

Only my husband knew the extent of my anguish, only he was supportive.  We both believed one day my son would find his inner strength and conquer his problems that steered him away.

We always hoped he would want us back in his life one day, but knew he had to figure out how to do this in his own way and in his own time. He had to learn to navigate his way back over a very rocky road.

My heart was right.

It started with a couple of upbeat phone calls.

Then one day it was a warm heartfelt hug.

A genuine smile.

Real laughter.

Illustration by Aaron Pocock
Illustration by Aaron Pocock

And the latest puzzle piece, a picture of his childhood teddy bear with a message saying that Teddy reminds him of so many happy memories.

That old teddy bear and my son Chris have been through a lot together.

I am so happy they have found the path that is leading them back home.

24 thoughts on “Listen to your heart

    1. Thank you Denise, the love and support fellow bloggers extend is beautiful and genuine. I am very happy to share this story that is turning out to have a happy ending.
      I hope others who are in a similar situation will maintain hope that in time difficult situations have the potential to work out for the best. Love Jenna 🙂


  1. Jenna, I never stopped caring. I’m glad you didn’t either. Some of the hardest moments of my life were the ones where I thought you’d given up on him. I knew you never would – but the pain was always there and it worried me that you’d get so lost in it you’d lose sight of what is important.

    I remember at nannies and teddys 80th (or another family event that we were all at) I told you that I believed one day he would come back. I remember saying that I didn’t know when or how, but I knew that he cared for us and that this would pass. I told you it would take a lot of time but it would happen. You looked so defeated, and expressed how hard it was to carry on hoping. I look back at that Jenna now and think of how far you’ve come.

    You are an inspiration to a lot of people, but him more than anyone else. I hope you know that.

    I’m glad I was right. It took time, but you left the door open and eventually he returned.

    I’m so happy for you x


    1. It is not I but you who is an inspirational person. Once I was asked to nominate my most inspirational person and talk about why they inspire. Most people said Delai Lama, Nelson Mandala, Amelia Earheart etc but I answered your name and said you inspire me to see the world in a better way, you instigate the best in people and make everyone you meet feel special and valued.

      Your love and that of your sister’s and father’s keep me focused on everything that is good.It is because of the three of you I survived and thrived through adversity. I love you all and would be nothing without you in my life. Love always Jenna 🙂


  2. Hi Jenna,
    I just ran across your blog, and a lot of what you write about really resonates with me. I will be an avid follower from now on. 🙂


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