It’s been a while since I’ve written a personal blog post but now feels like the right time to share. I’m not the same person I was two years ago and continue to evolve every day. It is only now when I read my earlier blog posts that I fully comprehend the extent of the insecurity I lived with.
I thought changing my thoughts and attitudes would be easy as long as I was determined to change. I was wrong. Transformation is a slow process making it difficult to know change is taking place. For every step forward there are many backward and sidewards steps that sometimes become unexpected benefits and sometimes they are just setbacks. Some days I felt confused and wished I’d never rocked the boat. I thought I was losing my identity which it turns out was exactly what I was trying to do. For me the glass was always half empty and I’d convinced myself that was all it could ever be.
When I decided to change I wanted to generate a new mindset so I started reading daily blogs and Facebook inspirational pages about happiness, gratitude, positivity and peace. At first they seemed fanciful but I kept on reading them like using flashcards to teach children to read, hoping they would infiltrate my way of thinking. Every day I’d try to incorporate the tone of the messages into my life. At first it felt unnatural but I persisted until the words started making more sense and gradually made way for positive change within.
Any type of life change is difficult. Life is not a fairy tale with everything resolving at the end leaving everyone to live happily ever after. Life is interesting and complicated with a random mix of joys, obstacles and challenges. I’ve learned that it’s not what happens but how we react and deal with life that makes us who we are. Now I see opportunities where I once saw challenges. Instead of feeling hurt or intimidated by people who are rude and disrespectful I now pity them. I’ve learned to be honest with myself and live happily in my own skin. I trust my heart will guide me.
Anyone determined to make changes to their life should accept it is not easy but understand we are all capable of far more than we imagine.
Whether you think you can or you can’t, you’re right. ~ Henry Ford
The mind is everything. What you think you become ~ Buddha
Such a beautifully open hearted post. Thank you for giving us a little peek into the journey you have been on. We all are more similar than we could ever imagine. 😄
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Hi Jenna, Lovely post and I can relate to every word of it. I have just started a Blog as following being a surrogate I have found that that has sent to on a huge journey of self discovery. I feel like my eyes have been opened to everything around me and my true potential. It really is amazing but also hard work and scary. Look forward to reading more about your journey.
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I’m so far behind and have missed so many quality posts. This is a lovely post – thank you Jenna. Isn’t it so true…it all takes time…and there is no real endpoint. I love the quotations too – very empowering x Happy New Year to you xx
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Thank you Sophie it’s lovely to hear from you.
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Hello Jenna, thanks again for sharing your inspiring life journey of understanding, acceptance and appreciation. You have became a better you. So , be proud of who you are today! Much love, Pat (ɔ◔‿◔)ɔ ♥
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Thank you for your kindness Pat 🙂
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(ɔ◔‿◔)ɔ ✌
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Such profound and empowering words here!
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No not profound just plain and simple from the heart 🙂
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I’m so happy for you:)
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Thank you, it means a lot to me.
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Beautiful, Jenna, just beautiful!
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Thank you Denise 🙂
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Nice post, Jenna. It’s good to learn about your evolving and shifting perspectives. Two personal thoughts, unsolicited: 1) In my view, transformation is not only a slow process but a beautifully, endless process and; 2) One of the reasons I chose to delete my Facebook account was because all I ever saw (for the most part) was posting (and repeat posting) of quotes and platitudes. While some may find encouragement from that ceaseless stream, it’s really about looking inside oneself for self-knowledge, inspiration, and growth.
I also appreciate the considerable depth and substance that can be found within this WordPress community. You don’t often find such genuineness on Facebook or other social media platforms.
As Glinda the Good Witch said, “You’ve always had the power my dear.” 🙂
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Thank you Eric, I appreciate your insightful comment. Love Jenna 🙂
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Just beautiful, Jenna 🙂 I’m so happy that you have found that deep peace.
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Thank you Michele, that means a lot to me.
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I’m glad to hear that your efforts have brought you peace. It is a good feeling to look back and see how far you have come!
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Yes it is, thanks Eliza
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I hear the exhale and acceptance Jenna. When we experience life in this way, it shifts everything. Thank you for sharing your own inner transformation 🙂
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Thanks Val, I appreciate it 🙂
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Sounds great Jenna–contentment is such a wonderful gift we can give ourselves–may you continue finding peace and acceptance of self as you travel this journey of life!!
Lots of hugs from Georgia!! Julie
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Thanks Julie. As always I appreciate your love and support. Keep warm! Love Jenna
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” I’ve learned that it’s not what happens but how we react and deal with life that makes us who we are.” -Exactly! I’m happy for you. 🙂
Inner peace is a wonderful thing. ❤
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Thank you, I appreciate your kindness 🙂
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wonderful to
kindly share
the freshness 🙂
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Thank you 🙂
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