I would have laughed if someone told me circumstances in my life this year would present challenges beyond my wildest dreams . Boring old predictable Jenna. Ever-reliable Jenna. Unruffled Jenna. My life felt settled, but I guess Jon Shedd’s words became popular for good reason. Ships in the harbor are safe but that’s not what ships are built for. The only problem was I didn’t know I was boarding the ship.
Fast forward twelve months and I feel like I’ve gone through the wringer multiple times. I’ve faced my soul. I’ve looked it in the eye and didn’t like everything I saw.
There is no coming to consciousness without pain. People will do anything, no matter how absurd, in order to avoid facing their own soul. One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious.
~ C.G. Jung
Teetering around the edges of my comfort zone isn’t new for me but this year I catapulted so far away I landed in uncharted waters without a life vest. Extraordinary family stresses as well as emotional and physical breakdowns relentlessly roared in my face. I sought counselling and tried medication to help tame the ugly beast but in the end discovered it’s up to me to find a way to progress. I’ve made mistakes and said things I regret. I’ve seen things I didn’t want to see and swallowed unpleasant truths. For the first time I’ve opened my eyes and looked the beast square in the eyes. For the first time in my life I’ve faced the truth warts and all. It doesn’t sit well but it feels authentic. For the first time I’m telling the whole truth.
I’m pretty tired I think I’ll go home now ~ Forrest Gump
Just dropped by to say hello, only to discover you ended last year rather unsettled. I do hope all is well with you now, Jenna, and you have tamed the beast and learned to love the soul you discovered. Take good care of yourself. xx
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Much love to you Jenna x Barbara
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Hi Jenna, i was going through all my old posts and messages and remembered how kind you were when I first started writing so I stopped by again to see if you were still blogging. Really pleased to see that you are, I hope 2017 is a special year for you full of positive experiences.
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Wow, Jenna! The road does get very bumpy at times, doesn’t it. You are now facing a whole new road and may it be smooth and a wonderful ride.
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So brave of you to share.
Working on your inner self, tough, tough work.
you inspire.
Thanks kindly for sharing.
powerful.
smiling for you.
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Inner work is always the toughest, it seems, but that is where the growth is. Therein lies the silver lining. Keep your eye on the prize. Peace to you, Jenna.
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It does come down to a lot of hard inner work. It is worth it.
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You definitely seem to have been through a lot. I’m glad to hear that you made it 🙂
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may you feel
hugged & supported
by loved ones
near & far 🙂
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It takes so much courage to face our inner demons and truths Jenna! Welcome to the next ride of your life 💛
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I’m happy for you.
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